I am hungry.  Hungry to run ‘long’ again, hungry to sign up for races again, and hungry to have that great feeling of accomplishment that running gave me.  I’m hungry for all of those things, but I am mostly just hungry for food.  While I was in my slump, rut, funk – whatever – I ate and ate and ate.  I can’t keep beating up my knees with this extra weight.  …sigh…  So, I joined Weight Watchers Online a month ago.  I was seduced by Jennifer Hudson’s story AND her unbelievable transformation.  She really looks amazing!  Anyway – I joined online because I just wanted something to get myself back under control.  I don’t want to go to meetings to share my story or cheer others on.  Sorry.  That just isn’t helpful for me and I would eventually stop going.

You might be thinking, “Well, what’s the difference between sharing at a meeting and sharing on a blog?”  Good question.  I don’t have a good answer, though.   It’s just different.

WW’s current program works like this:  You get a certain number of points per day based on your weight/height/age.  You can use the points however you choose, but ‘healthy’ choices use fewer points, so there is incentive to NOT use points for a donut because then you will be hungry for the rest of the day.  Extra points can be earned through activity and they also allow some extra weekly points.

You need to know that I can be a fairly obsessive person, so WW is great in many ways but bad in some ways as well.  I have the phone/iPad app and I spend a LOT of time looking up food to see how many points they are.   I look up foods that I have no plan to eat and  I’ve figured out how many points all of my favorite desserts might have.  On a typical day, I scrimp and save points during the day and end up with 2/3 of them at dinner time.  I know this is not good.  My goal this week is to evenly distribute my points throughout the day – although I do enjoy my ‘treat’ of a piece of wheat bread with natural peanut butter and a tsp of strawberry jam.  🙂
I don’t feel like I look any different, yet.  I washed some jeans and was able to put them on without sucking in, though.  (You know, because they shrink up so much when washed/dried…)  I manage to ignore the scale until the weekend.  Since my weigh in day is Sunday, I get a little antsy by  Friday and start stepping on the scale just to make sure I haven’t gained weight.  I’ve lost 10 pounds so far.  Ten more and I’ll be back where I was at the marathon in February.

Well, gotta go.  I’m hungry and I’ve got a delicious 3 point egg white omelet waiting for me.